The Scavengers
Death means no longer alive. The end of needs and cravings. But it is not what happened here in forensic department.
Lima hari dan hampir 15 kes kematian. Dari kes accident ke homicide ke suicide ke sudden death. Accident seperti fall from height dan MVA. Homicide seperti gunshot dan stabbing. Suicide such as fall from height. Sudden death seperti dissecting aorta, hemorrhagic extracerebellar stroke dan acute myocardial infarction. JONAH adalah kata-kata yang bermain di setiap bibir warga Forensic Department. Ada yang baru ingin berjinak-jinak dengan istilah tersebut berperangai sakai mengucapkannya berkali-kali sehari. Jonah selalunya digunakan di Emergency Department. Ada suatu pantang larang perkataan yang tidak seharusnya disebut seperti QUIET atau LENGANG contohnya “Eh! Hari ni lengang je”. Aku pernah mendengarnya (Jonah) di medical TV series seperti ER dan Grey’s Anatomy dan ketika attachment di HKL dua tahun lepas. Sebaik sahaja disebut, nescaya akan adanya kes bertalu-talu datang. Jonah yang popular di dalam bible lazimnya merujuk kepada Nabi Yunus. Tapi tidak ada scientific evidence tentang correlation antara sebutan dan peristiwa. Kita sebagai umat Islam tidak harus percaya kepada perkara-perkara khurafat. Melabelkan seseorang sebagai JONAH adalah the polite way to tell someone that seperti juga di zaman tok kaduk di mana istilah SIAL digunakan. Ajal maut manusia bukanlah ditentukan oleh seorang manusia, malahan Allah jualah yang Maha Berkuasa.
To open up one after another corpse really takes a toll on you. From fresh warm body to cold frozen-stored one, we got to observe their organ being examined and placed back inside of them. You lost your pieces of humanity and growing increasingly cold little by little. I saw relatives cried begging for their loved ones not to be cut open because of such stigma. I was there when we deliver the autopsied corpse back to their family, and how upon seeing it, the relatives cried uncontrollably. On both scenes, my heart was not touched a bit. I’m faking my condolence face. I am craving for more. It doesn’t bother me the sadness of those who waited outside. I want scalpel and forceps. I want dissecting knife and saw. I am excited and euphoric. Addicted and craving for more and more. I grew less human, I saw the human on their worst condition. With their scalp flailing open, skull sawed and remove, chest ripped out, viscera pulled and removed, even the tongue will not survive us the scavenger. We were presented with body of mystery. We need to figure out how they died. In that process, their corpses are our oyster. After all, nobody will know how anatomically incorrect the stitched body. The beauty of curiosity turns ugly.
In our eyes, corpses are our undiscovered book. In order to learn from them, we need to open them and read every inch. Some of us turn shivery scared, uneasy and disturbed. I believe they will soon adapt to it. The pungent smell of blood and decomposing flesh and innard. The unique perfume of calcium dust sawed from the skull. The sound of ripped cartilage of the ribs. Art of deskinning and incising. I found my drugs. Place where I belong.
Nothing like the expression of “Hey! I cut that criminal open,” upon reading the news of robbery on newspaper.
COD? Tercium Almari Ketika Tidur
Lima hari dan hampir 15 kes kematian. Dari kes accident ke homicide ke suicide ke sudden death. Accident seperti fall from height dan MVA. Homicide seperti gunshot dan stabbing. Suicide such as fall from height. Sudden death seperti dissecting aorta, hemorrhagic extracerebellar stroke dan acute myocardial infarction. JONAH adalah kata-kata yang bermain di setiap bibir warga Forensic Department. Ada yang baru ingin berjinak-jinak dengan istilah tersebut berperangai sakai mengucapkannya berkali-kali sehari. Jonah selalunya digunakan di Emergency Department. Ada suatu pantang larang perkataan yang tidak seharusnya disebut seperti QUIET atau LENGANG contohnya “Eh! Hari ni lengang je”. Aku pernah mendengarnya (Jonah) di medical TV series seperti ER dan Grey’s Anatomy dan ketika attachment di HKL dua tahun lepas. Sebaik sahaja disebut, nescaya akan adanya kes bertalu-talu datang. Jonah yang popular di dalam bible lazimnya merujuk kepada Nabi Yunus. Tapi tidak ada scientific evidence tentang correlation antara sebutan dan peristiwa. Kita sebagai umat Islam tidak harus percaya kepada perkara-perkara khurafat. Melabelkan seseorang sebagai JONAH adalah the polite way to tell someone that seperti juga di zaman tok kaduk di mana istilah SIAL digunakan. Ajal maut manusia bukanlah ditentukan oleh seorang manusia, malahan Allah jualah yang Maha Berkuasa.
To open up one after another corpse really takes a toll on you. From fresh warm body to cold frozen-stored one, we got to observe their organ being examined and placed back inside of them. You lost your pieces of humanity and growing increasingly cold little by little. I saw relatives cried begging for their loved ones not to be cut open because of such stigma. I was there when we deliver the autopsied corpse back to their family, and how upon seeing it, the relatives cried uncontrollably. On both scenes, my heart was not touched a bit. I’m faking my condolence face. I am craving for more. It doesn’t bother me the sadness of those who waited outside. I want scalpel and forceps. I want dissecting knife and saw. I am excited and euphoric. Addicted and craving for more and more. I grew less human, I saw the human on their worst condition. With their scalp flailing open, skull sawed and remove, chest ripped out, viscera pulled and removed, even the tongue will not survive us the scavenger. We were presented with body of mystery. We need to figure out how they died. In that process, their corpses are our oyster. After all, nobody will know how anatomically incorrect the stitched body. The beauty of curiosity turns ugly.
In our eyes, corpses are our undiscovered book. In order to learn from them, we need to open them and read every inch. Some of us turn shivery scared, uneasy and disturbed. I believe they will soon adapt to it. The pungent smell of blood and decomposing flesh and innard. The unique perfume of calcium dust sawed from the skull. The sound of ripped cartilage of the ribs. Art of deskinning and incising. I found my drugs. Place where I belong.
Nothing like the expression of “Hey! I cut that criminal open,” upon reading the news of robbery on newspaper.
COD? Tercium Almari Ketika Tidur
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