Friday, January 21, 2005

5 Steps From Psychological Breakdown

It still puzzles me! It still puzzles me! Yes! It’s a puzzle that keeps me puzzling. Some may see this some psychotic writing but it was me. I am psychotic, I been in the total psychological breakdown. I am! –END-

Let’s talk what have been around this week. A lot of meeting of MLTA. Lots of meeting minutes unconfirmed. And most of all, the MLTA Grand Meeting. After a bitter postponed, it finally happen. I am making some progress at everyday with a support from my committee and friends. I owe it to them.

I found it is fool to share your daily agenda with other people so I prefer to state only the important thing. Lately, life became repetitiously boring and plain. It just like a recurring of deja-vu. Same thing day by day. Maybe just a slight different that making such day sweeter or bitter. But mostly it not so bad after all…

Maybe I must start to appreciate every moment I live and be optimistic of everything even if there is stranger behind you holding a knife, going to stab you, just assume he is trying to kill some bugs on your cloth that you didn’t see. Over-optimist is a fatal also. So be moderate. Not so damn holy crap optimist and not so cursed pessimist.

I became more alerts of my friend behaviour nowadays, it’s like I can predict every single thing they did. Every blink, smile and such weird uncommon trait they suddenly possessed. One day, I woke up smelling such sweet smell of fragrance or such thing that volatile. I see it’s my buddies who preparing-up to college with such an unusual… Okay! To cut it short, let just say that he is trying hard to make himself looks better that day.

Last night, he ironed his cloth so hard and won’t tolerance any wrinkle. He makes his pant as sharp as a razor and that morning with such craps manners… what is going on with him? Then, I finally realized with my own hypothesis that it is because of the first lecture of that day is his favourite lecturer. It’s weird! It’s a male clumsy lecturer that taught you like a kindergartener. He’ll ask “Do you know what is this?”, “Have you use that stuff?” for something that we are all mastered in. Pardon him, maybe it is his first experience teaching. Yeah! Whatever! But you know what? All the girls in my class who been sooo passive before in the terms that they are just nodding and silently writing without any good response in other lecture with other lecturer are suddenly wake-up and actively asking even sometimes the question is what we called…CRAP in this young male lecturer’s class! Maybe because that male lecturer is good looking, girls a sooo into him. I wonder if it works in a better way for them, maybe they’ll score in his subject.
From the first semester, we never been taught by a young male lecturer so I understand why those girls suddenly act that way. I don’t blame them; they desperately need for attention from men since they are hideous! Oh God! I’m so cruel! My bad!

I long for my last lecturer who is moving back to her hometown for such secret reason she refuse to tell. I SMS her telling about the rapid behaviour change of student in the class she used to teach, she reply me with a laugh. I like her for she is in the same shoes with us. She understands us well because she is still in the mood of teenager that she understands what the students feel about studying. She is like a friend to us and we didn’t have to speak extremely polite to her. She just use ‘kau’ ‘aku’ which I thought have breaking the border of lecturer-student relationship conversational pattern. Someone is remembered for his special trait. But she is remembered for being such a humble and happy go lucky lecturer. I wish her all the best!
Yup! Another fun story about the new lecturer/s. This times an imported one! Husband and wife for sure! My first expectation that he must be so hard to be understand since he don’t speak Malay which leave us no option but to interact with him in English. First lecture with this male lecturer is not so bad. We are rapidly making such a keen interest with him. But the troubles are on other student who is not well in English, I mean they suffered. But he is and effort-seeking lecturer, he tries to use simple English to make us understand and try to use some gesture.

The worst is not ended yet! Wait till you meet his wife who also teaching the same subject but different chapter. Her English was badly infused with his mother-tongue, hardly understandable. But once again, not to bragging myself up, I did understand her but with an extra attention and concentration. I write down anything she said and later, my friends borrow it. Sometimes we just don’t easily take some hardship as a barrier. Make it as a challenge you have to overcome. That is how I survive the last semester.

This week “Top Ten Changes Suddenly Happen to The Student With The Presence of Newcoming Male Gorgeous Lecturer”.

#10 They attend class early. Before this, they come to class when the lecture almost
finish

#9 They not afraid to sit at the first row. Before this, they tried their best not to be seen and wish that lecture didn’t call out their name to answer question.

#8 They are well dress with a make-up also.

#7 They pay attention. God knows they actually don’t understand. Before, they are to
talkative. Okay! Girls!

#6 Less blinking! Wonder how their eyes suffered.

#5 They don’t turn their head anywhere else, not even to their friend beside.

#4 They are paying the note for that subject without have to be asked. Minus grumble. Otherwise before!

#3 They hate when the lecture ends.

#2 They frequently visiting the lecturer’s office just to take a peek of that male
lecturer.

#1 They ask question! God know how many time other lecturer repetitiously asked
“Any Doubt?” without anyone raising their hands before.

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