Standing Up

Well it is hard to be a bad guy. I know because I am one. While everyone else prefer to stand on a side yapping and expressing loathe of some people, I am the one who actually expressing them. I always be in a conflict with people and I actually believe that when you think something is not right, you should stand up against it even at a cost of being a bad one.

While nobody want to stand up against some people, they keep on expressing and dissing with each other about it, well I actually did. I stand up against people they don’t want to stand up to, at a risk of being hated. But for heaven sake, I actually do you a favor. I did your dirty job, the one you should be doing instead of dissing with each other.

I know when I am being used. I know very well but I let them used me, because I think as long as they are happy and satisfied, it is good enough for me. I thought it will bring chicken soup to my soul, but alas it didn’t. What do I answer to my conscience. what excuse do I give to my moral and logic. How do you feel when you were taken advantage on but because you are avoiding conflict, you just let it be. The other party really abusing their chance up until you left with no more patience. But hatred. Patience is a thin veil, do not poke them, it can tear.

There’s only so much you can stand people. There’s only so much you can give. There’s only so much patience. Some people will take advantage of that, and they take a lot of it, they try to bite for more than what they can chew. But still you give and give and give, and the opportunist will feast on your generosity. While you watching and holding so much anger in your heart. But to what extent will it last. How long will you serve people for their purpose when yours is unmet. They ask you for many thing, and you give, but later they talk to each other making fun of how stupid and easily fool you are being used like that. They laugh at you in some language you are not well-versed on. But your common sense knew that you are being laughed at.

I am not stupid, and I refuse to serve to your purpose any longer. I am done providing for those who have interest only to fulfill their need. I am sorry that you are hurt but I am not sorry of doing it. Some people need to open your eyes. some people need to teach you a lesson. You need to actually be the real person as you dream to be. This is a windy and thorny path, it doesn’t work if you travel by stepping on someone’s back, you need to feel the real deal rather than expecting someone else to make it easy for you. Wise is not with age but with virtues. Respect is not something you ask for, you need to earn it.

I have to be the bad guy. Just because nobody stand up to you doesn’t mean that you are not wrong. I am standing up to you because I am done sitting down doing nothing while you keep on taking advantage of a pure thing as friendship.

I deserve it. I deserve to be angry.

Call me BACKSTABBER for all you want, but you know it deep down in your heart that I have been doing your favor so much and you taking advantage of me for too long then what I did to you. This is just a little eye-opener. So you can see that this path we taking together, is not an easy one, it was never easy before it will never be easy ever. Trying to avoid difficulties by expecting others to do the hardest stuff for you will never show your real potential. In a real world out there, you will face it again soon and there is no other way to run, no more people to take advantage on.

My question is, how will you keep afloat?

Good luck in your future undertaking. It is fun knowing you. You thought me lesson in my experience archives.