Saturday, March 12, 2011

Science of Being Me #2

…don’t it just turn you off while reading some fairly interesting newspaper articles online and thought, “Well I can try read this,” (because you are known for being incompetent to keep attention on something for more than 5 minutes)…then by the end of the article there it is…a button NEXT…seriously? A simple freaking story about tsunami does not require a journal to convey.

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…I just survived 32-hours awake time finishing my proposal correction, final touch to the SPSS data then manipulating them into frequency, discriptive, t-test independent and one-way ANOVA. Seriously these thing wouldn’t made possible without tonnes of opened browser tab and YouTube tutorial video. I stayed up since 2pm on thursday until 10pm friday. By the end of it, I couldn’t even feel my ‘tuchus’, it was severely numbed. Luckily I stock up on snacks so I wouldn’t have to leave my table at all. For that I wanted to thank…

a) Lavender fragrance oil - for calming me down throughout the torturous time. I swear to God I just want to punch somebody especially two of my group member who submitted to me crap I ended up doing all their parts. Basically I did everything all over again. I fought the urge to bombard them in my Facebook status because I know this anger was brought about by my sleep deprivation cum sleepless zombie state.

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b) Topfer wafer cube, Cocopie, Tong Garden Snack and Mentos full fruit chewing gum   –  things that keeps my sugar level stable and fuelled my brain to keep on going through pages of journals.

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c) John Mayer (Battle Studies), Vampire Weekend (Contra),  Duffy (Endlessly), Timbaland (Shock Value I), Shania Twain (Come on Over), Outcast (Idlewild), LCD Soundsystem (This Is Happening), Keyshia Cole (Calling All Hearts), Eva Cassidy (Simply Eva), Kanye West (My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy), Greg Laswell (Take A Bow) and overdosage of Michael Buble and Frank Sinatra and…Nina Simone (the Very Best of)…all of these albums actually keeping me company and have my anger constantly on check. Yes anger, if you were in my shoes having a group members like the two of them, you will know that it such splinter that you will find relief by removing them.

d) Distractions – Failbook, Facebook, bathroom break, self-motivating mirror check etc.

e) Most of all…my loyal and durable latex laptop, I couldn’t remember when did I last shut it down, three months ago? Seriously, Acer Aspire 4720 is one hell of strong functioning laptop albiet small memory capacity. I never shut it down, I just keep it lock because I constantly downloading TV series, song albums, movies. When it decided to go crazy and hang, I know it is time to clear the cache and restarting them, but I never shut it down for real. It just there being functional and entertaining. Maybe because it was a gift of love from my dad, so it decided to be reliable, strong and always be there…just like him. Does that make my mother the speakers then? Because it always producing sound…OMG…I didn’t just say that about my Ma. I mean those speakers sings to me…it calms me…just like my ma. Oh I am such train-wrecked replacing my parent for electronic stuff. I shouldn’t do that for a limb.

…yesterday I literally shut down for seconds while reading journals.  It happens few times. Guess I am not as reliable as my laptop it seems. My body giving me Q to retreat and recoil onto my bed but I can’t afford to do that because there’s so many thing to do. Once I get my momentum going, it’s a bad idea to stop, because of inertia. It might took me long to restarting again. This might be where some drug dealer can get great deal selling meth to me, because for the sake of everything good, I am totally buying em’.

…the best part about doing assignment is actually printing them. What a satisfaction getting it stapled.

---with family history of non-pathological OCD, I am a meticulous person. You can see it in my work, I never do something just for the sake of doing it. If it takes me 10 times longer to finish one hour job, I’ll freaking do it because I just that meticulous. It is annoying at times, but hey if you didn’t do your job well, you don’t get to call me freak…why don’t you just go to school.

…where can I find a door grill lubricant. It making a shrieking sound I swear to God, it annoys everyone on my floor level.

…why is it took me soooo much effort doing a Research Proposal? why is it so purgatorial? Why so many complain. I don’t settled for just ‘okay’, never. When I was told my last proposal needed correction, I took it personally and I revamp the whole thing. Practically I made a new one.

…I supposedly over-compensate myself going through days of sleep to pay my sleeping debt, but guess what? I just sleep for 6 hours and it is the most rewarding sleep I ever had. I am too exhausted I couldn’t earn a dream. I just shut down just like that *snapping my finger*

…I hate bad odor, but one of the room in my house constantly manufacturing one,  I have to put air freshener on my fan. Seriously, air freshener will not burn a hole in your pocket. Please buy one. That horrendous, hot moist sour stink really annoying, it literally embedded onto the wall and paint of that room. I can throw a skunk in it…it has 0.05 percent of survival. The keyword is…I hate bad odor.

What is a chance of this writing influenced by residual of sleep deprivation?…or EMOTIONAL CANCER <—totally trademarking these words.  

1 comment:

under the sky said...

wat a skanky feeling have to hold anger and multitasking at the same time. u got swag!!

#while offering a cream puff

nuff.nang

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