My head is such a clutter tight space right now. It physically manifest as the way I live. But no matter how ridiculously unorganized my life has been, I always pull a fake smile to cover it all and a laugh to make it okey. An attempt to put band-aid over a bullet hole.
So pain stricken by lots of things, take MBBS for once. It is only logic that blogging is the last thing I wanted to do right now.
It has been an amazing journey in the new environment. <-- the former sentence was written with not a gist of smile or excitement whatsoever. Intriguing HTAR with lots and lots of younger and nicer specialist that brought me into comparison with myself. Of course the latter was not a match in a slight bit. But I bitch about MBBS @ IMS @ MSU a lot lately. A lot. Maybe I should cross my legs (non-sequitur).
Life sometimes so tiring and demanding. Try living a life with no motivation and purpose whatsoever. Purgatorial at large. A sadomasochist may be addicted by humiliation and pain. The pain itself is a way to feel. I have newfound respect to the cutters (those who cut themselves just to feel) bar none.
Purposeless is an adverse reaction.
De-motivation is a complication.
…with no medication.
Siapa tahu apa yang ada dalam hati seseorang?
Saya tahu, glycogen, fat-soluble vitamins dan iron etc.
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