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"Isolation will nourished depression"
Bermula hari ini, aku akan mengadakan hubungan intim bersama Miss La Ptop secara marathon tanpa henti. Whahaha...sungguh luchah niat di hati ini. Well, sebenarnya aku akan mula membaca jurnal-jurnal kat Medscape untuk thesis. Masuk hari ni laptop aku dah 3 hari tak tutup. Janganlah dia meninggal untuk 2-3 minggu lagi, sebab kemeninggalannya akan membuatkan hidupku tak bermakna lagi. Dia adalah satu-satunya inanimate organism (<--oxymoron), yang taat dan mampu menghiburkan di kala duka.
Walaupun dia berat dan huduh, tapi dia telah melalui banyak rintangan bersamaku, sometimes she is better than a real animate being. Sejak-sejak dah di-upgrade-kan kepada Window 7 oleh Elmo, dia dah kurang meragam dan prestasinya sangat mantap. Ibarat seorang isteri baru lepas minum Kacip Fatimah dan Manjakani...Aum! hehehe! (<--macam tau je rasanya, hahaha).
Banyak jenayah yang berlaku kebelakangan ni dan banyak jenayah di atas jenayah terus dilakukan tetapi as long I can survive it who give the ________ (<--sila isi kata-kata mencarut dalam blank). My mum keeps bugging me (<--see derhaka) asking when will I go back home. Well, to tell her the truth, I am home right now and I am happy where I am, I don't need to be there where I have no control what I want to do and where I want to go. Here I am totally at reign. It is officially a year since last time I am home, and I don't really care when will I'll be back. Maybe 5 years more. I am at my total freedom here.
I knew some people who will go back home every weekend dan aku melihatnya sebagai sesuatu yang contradicted dengan aku, and I knew people yang tak tahan kalau lama tak balik rumah. Well I think they must be so close with their family. As for me, I have issues and reasons not to go home. Tapi aku memang tak boleh tahan kalau ada orang yang fikir it is cool to be like me. No it is not cool, so don't try to copycat me or anything. Your life are compeletely different than mine.
First, aku memang totally at war dengan my auntie. And since she was the closest to my grandma (and my granma is like a centerpiece of our family) and other relatives, she must have telling lies to my relatives untuk memburukkan aku sedangkan she forgot that I can burst anytime and tell the rest of them of how whore-ship she is. Maybe I will not be able to defend myself and tell the truth about what I did is such an innate thing to do for someone who has been backstabbed and betrayed, and they already built a religion out in a concept of criminalising me. Maybe they already built a faculty out of it.
Since my auntie is an apple of their eyes and they worship the ground she walks on. But if only they learned the truth about her, they'll spit on every mention of her name. I am just waiting for a good time, imagining the grand entrance and walk to the stage. I'll turn the speaker out loud and begin to spill out everything that will bring somebody to death upon realizing it. There will be funerals among the elderly and they will be heartattacks even attacks. So the best thing to do to not being tempted to do all that is to be away from them. So I will need to lose facility for a wellbeing of others. Let them witch-hunt me and operate their malleous malificarum over my absence.
Let it not be the second or third reasons. Telling about it rendered me stressful. Let just say that I am raised in an injustice condition where there is oppression and preference. I am denigrated from the point where I started to think until now, so the best thing for me not to retaliate is to be away. Therefore I stand with a principle of...
"Constant exposure to a stressor will leave you BLISTER (<--noun and verb). Before it turns into callous, you have to remove it away from you. So the temptation to hurt them further (because of your callousness) and to be hurt will be gone."
Therefore I removed some people from my FB friendslist because I do not like the possibility to hurt them and to be hurt by them....and the rest of it is because I am not that close to them. It's not a revenge. Just imagine you are in a disagreement with someone, and he/she (being immature and short-thinker) posted something in their wall regarding the argument to draw attention and beseech sympathy from others. And you happened to come across it and hurt by the wall post and the comment it gathers, so you post the counter attack and hurt the other party. It will go on and on and on. Will it not be wise if you just delete them upon disagreement so whatever shaite he'll/she'll wrote will not be visible to you and vice versa? Just let the post expired and forgotten. Later, if it happened that you would want to befriend with them again, just re-add them. Simple and fool-proof. It is not my first time to see FB war and it is embarassing when everyone know about it.
That is why the only relative I have in my list is my lil' sister and the only friends that I keep is those I have less trouble with. I wouldn't want to add my dad (yes, even he is FB literate) because of my vulgarity. Can you imagine how mad he'll be if he saw my moral insensitive posting?
Again about the FB Fued, it's no point adding you enemy as a friend, even the sound of it is oxymoronic. It'll hurt you and you will have some kind of paranoia to constantly check on their status to see if she/he wrote anything bad about you and vice versa. So be wise and matured. Do not post something that you will regret later and most importantly DELETE YOUR ENEMY............................or not.
So don't ask me or insult me on the reason I deleted you, but thank me because I do not want to hurt you because, being a cold-hearted punk I am, my temptation to hurt people is directly proportional to the degree of gratification I'll get. So thank me for deleting you. And I'll be honored if you do the same.
I know this entry will insult some people. But this is the thing they call REALITY. You are not living the Barbie world where everything is pretty and everyone is good-looking in the obscene pink world. Like Shanaynay once said:
"Ya' all need reality CHECK, and I'm gonna be the BANKER, and I'm gonna CASH that sh**!"
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