It's been the fifth day of the New Year 2005. It's just like another day, you wakes up and smell the same polluted air and hear the same noise. Maybe everyone wanted to know my New Year resolution. Well, my New Year resolution is to never make any resolution on the New Year’s Eve. So, no resolution? Sorry to disappointed you. Why didn't I make any resolution? Cause I just think it is stupid to make resolution only by the beginning of the new year. I still remember the words from the most famous motivationist (wonder if the term is right). The word is the most influencing to me after a thousand other that I’ve heard, it sounds like "Start by realizing that you have the power at any given moment to change anything and everything in your entire life simply by deciding to do so." It makes the New Year resolution sound stupid to me while you can make your resolution at any given time and moment. Like what I'm doing now, if I choose to change the topic, I just simply do it...
'Obsessive Compulsive' I believe that everyone have heard this terminology before. It stands for a state of mind or behavior when someone is too concern about everything he did or anything someone did to him. Let say if he is doing an assignment and he cannot finish it on time, that matter will spoilt his day and he cannot stop himself from thinking about it even if it is not a big matter at all. This behavior also represented by being perfectionist in the mean of overly. Obsessive compulsive can affect one’s life in health manner. He’ll stop eating and silently suffering.
Why am I relating myself of being obsessive compulsive? It’s like I’m having all the abnormal personalities (or harshly called psychotic disorder) in the world. My mind is so mixed up of showing all kind of pre-psychotic symptoms. I’m having this, I’m having that! It’s better to realizing it yourself so you can create the precaution or preventative measures to stop it from happening. Or else you are someone who are just waiting it to happen and feeling helpless. I’m feeling that I can think about some matter for the whole day and hardly can distinguish myself from thinking about it for others important thing. For example, my major concern in my house which I rented with 6 other friends (and fiends) is the kitchen. I am so concern about the cleanliness of it. It can distract my whole day even if I just seeing an unwashed plate or spoon. It’s killing me in the mysterious way. It’s hard to teach others who never been taught about the important of cleanliness. They are so filthy and immoral towards spotlessness. They are animal in a form of stupid, dirty, grubby human. I can go along way with this but I prefer to change instead.
Last night, we have a guests came to our house. It was my housemate ex-friend at his old school. At first I was positive about them coming to our house maybe just to get to know each other until one of them starting to say “I want to share something with all of you. It’s not direct selling, but it was direct sharing.” God I was so shocked (I hate hearing someone promoting something as I hate speech). I was totally turned off by it but to my friend sake, I pretend to be interested which is so stupid and making situation even worst. They misinterpreted my smile which is cynical as some kind of gesture of interested. I am the main target and the eye contact is always to me. Am I the great pretender that my gesture will always being confused by other? The promoting really changes us all. There is some kind of force who pushes us to join it. For the sake of wanting them leave as fast as possible and be gone. I just fill in the form which is not full-heartedly mean. It turns out to be such kind of warranty and dead end. We are forced to pay RM2000 to start that Multi Level Marketing scheme in 2 days, which I thought totally impossible and stupid. I swallowed my mood throughout the night and gave me sleepless night. I woke up late in the morning and got sore throat. I blame it all to them. Can you imagine people who are just selling such idea to be extremely rich can gain 5-digits earning in just less then a year.
My stupid friends were influenced by it and it just leaves me feeling annoyed and infuriated. They are just too short-minded to think just how rich they can be without realizing what they have to sacrifice for it. For goodness sake, I don’t give damn that much money; I don’t give a damn for that luxury life. All I want is to live happily and be normal. Money is not everything in the world. You can have every material you want in cash. But can you buy your old normal life. More money means more burdens. More space in your head and ended up neglecting your study. Why bother study when you can spends money and have fun with your fast earning. I can’t believe they are all blinded by cash. It’s all fake! You can buy happiness with money? Maybe yes and maybe no, you can travel the world over but it’s all fake. Happiness is from within. I rather be poor and happy, with not much complicated things portrayed in your mind rather being rich with such paranoid mind and anxiety being robbed or chased by Tax Officer. Ha! Ha!
I rather put something in my head concerning knowledge rather than money, money and money. For heaven sake, I totally disagree of the idea of study for better future, better job, better house, better car or cars. I love drowning my self with such a beautiful fact and knowledge that I feel I can study for the rest of my life. I hate being rich. I sought after moderate and happy life. Guess this week issue should end here.
This week top ten is “The Top Ten Reason People Wanted to Be Rich.”
#10 So they can buy anything they want. SEEMS LIKE THEY ARE LACK OF EVERYTHING. Can you buy something priceless-but-you-lack-kind of thing?
#9 So they can have cars and lots of chick. LOTS OF TAX, LOTS OF WORRIES, LOTS OF DISEASE, LOTS OF MEDICATION.
#8 So they can pay back all the deeds of their parents. DON’T FORGET THEIR YOUTH, THEIR TIME, AND THEIR ENERGIES. Stupid rich people think they can pay for everything.
#7 So their friend will be jealous of them. SURE THEY ARE JEALOUS OF YOUR RICHNESS. But they pleasure your stupidity.
#6 So their future wife will live happily. SURE THEY WILL, THANKS TO YOU, THEY CAN PAY FOR THEIR GIGGOLOS.
#5 So they can have a guaranteed better future. WHO CAN GUARANTEED YOU HAVE FUTURE. You can die at any time.
#4 So they can help the helpless. CRAP! YOU BETTER HELP YOURSELF FIRST.
#3 So they can have a good medication once they are old. OR MAYBE A GRANDEST FUNERAL.
#2 So their ancestor will never be suffers. Who says you’ll have ancestors? THEY’LL DIE OF KILLING EACH OTHER FOR YOUR POSSESSIONS.
#1 So they can have a big grandest house…ROBBED!
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