This is wonderful day (try to be optimistic)! This is a wonderful day (I’m losing faith about it)! This is a wonderful day! I keep repeating that words over and over every time I wake up on the morning. I stare at myself on the mirror, try to find something good about me (except for a very cute face), there is emptiness and stresses I’ve tried to bear.
There is something at every time I wake, I had an opportunity to change something at every moment by just think and slightly change. I just have to cut the crap and go on living. Everyday is a special day! Everyday is a promised different from the other day. Gosh! Why did I sound so pathetic!
Enough of it (I’ve just think about changing). Let me continue with my experience during the whole week I’ve been through. It was plainly worth-to-live-for (not in contact of I am tired and sick of life). Don’t worry; I’m never going to commit suicide though. It just not worth it. I’m not going to end this pathetic life like that. Loser did!
On Tuesday (Yup! I’m going back to normal), class ends earlier meaning that I can somehow spent my time doing something else rather than returned home and sleep. We (me and my buddies) are going to Plaza Alam Sentral to watch Muzik-Muzik semi finals. It happens so fast I can’t even finish downloading it to my mind until. Just a slight memory about it. All I can remember is gone there in rush riding on a taxi which initially drive by a sound trouble (or maybe just-got-irritated kind of driver). He didn’t even listen to what I’ve said loud and clear “Bang! Hantar kami ke Plaza Alam Sentral!” He ended up sent us to Plaza Masalam. We have to take another taxi and arrived at the right place. Luckily (even without ticket), we manage to entered to the studio Seri Pentas 2 and there it is… a real situation you can’t see on TV. Blurrrr…. I don’t remember what happened after that.
Don’t know what happening to me lately. Everything seems to fade away easily. I’ve lost my memory even if it just a minute ago. It so shamefully irritating. But surprisingly, I never lost memory on what I’ve studied. Just a things like; what colour of dress certain people wore, what the name of a new people I’ve met, what the lyric of a song I just heard, what I ate last night, who paid taxi yesterday and etceteras. I believe I can trace it back if I just try so hard to recall it back, but it just the matter of I won’t. I don’t like to mess up with my already confused head. Don’t want to end up exploding my head. I just too cute to be stressful. Don’t want to have wrinkle on my handsome face. Yeah whatever!! This memory thing is so upsetting me and started to freak me out. Maybe it has something to do with my food intake or could it be…AGEING!!!! No!!!! I just reach my sweet 19 and don’t spoil it! God!!!!!
There was a girl who using a computer next to me at library. She was so annoyed by a girl who waited behind her. She have no privacy at all since that girl is watching everything she did. I mean, she is not going to surf the ADULT ONLY site but…wait a minute! She an adult what? Okay! She is surfing internet to chill on Friendster, email or what so ever. So why does that insensitive girl bother to stay around. It’s not like she didn’t have a chance to use it after her. All she has to do is tell her and walk away. There is a policy called BOOKING! She just have to change ID card with the girl who using a computer before her, that’s it! Now, walk away! Walk away and find something to do before you turn. Sadly stupid!
Enough of criticizing myself and others I think it is time to go before the same situation happened to the girl next to me occurs on me. Yer! It just not comfortable when someone is watching you while you are doing something. Yer! If it happen to me, I will rudely ask that people to leave. I’m not a polite kind of problem-solver. I’m bad! I am soo BAD.
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There is something at every time I wake, I had an opportunity to change something at every moment by just think and slightly change. I just have to cut the crap and go on living. Everyday is a special day! Everyday is a promised different from the other day. Gosh! Why did I sound so pathetic!
Enough of it (I’ve just think about changing). Let me continue with my experience during the whole week I’ve been through. It was plainly worth-to-live-for (not in contact of I am tired and sick of life). Don’t worry; I’m never going to commit suicide though. It just not worth it. I’m not going to end this pathetic life like that. Loser did!
On Tuesday (Yup! I’m going back to normal), class ends earlier meaning that I can somehow spent my time doing something else rather than returned home and sleep. We (me and my buddies) are going to Plaza Alam Sentral to watch Muzik-Muzik semi finals. It happens so fast I can’t even finish downloading it to my mind until. Just a slight memory about it. All I can remember is gone there in rush riding on a taxi which initially drive by a sound trouble (or maybe just-got-irritated kind of driver). He didn’t even listen to what I’ve said loud and clear “Bang! Hantar kami ke Plaza Alam Sentral!” He ended up sent us to Plaza Masalam. We have to take another taxi and arrived at the right place. Luckily (even without ticket), we manage to entered to the studio Seri Pentas 2 and there it is… a real situation you can’t see on TV. Blurrrr…. I don’t remember what happened after that.
Don’t know what happening to me lately. Everything seems to fade away easily. I’ve lost my memory even if it just a minute ago. It so shamefully irritating. But surprisingly, I never lost memory on what I’ve studied. Just a things like; what colour of dress certain people wore, what the name of a new people I’ve met, what the lyric of a song I just heard, what I ate last night, who paid taxi yesterday and etceteras. I believe I can trace it back if I just try so hard to recall it back, but it just the matter of I won’t. I don’t like to mess up with my already confused head. Don’t want to end up exploding my head. I just too cute to be stressful. Don’t want to have wrinkle on my handsome face. Yeah whatever!! This memory thing is so upsetting me and started to freak me out. Maybe it has something to do with my food intake or could it be…AGEING!!!! No!!!! I just reach my sweet 19 and don’t spoil it! God!!!!!
There was a girl who using a computer next to me at library. She was so annoyed by a girl who waited behind her. She have no privacy at all since that girl is watching everything she did. I mean, she is not going to surf the ADULT ONLY site but…wait a minute! She an adult what? Okay! She is surfing internet to chill on Friendster, email or what so ever. So why does that insensitive girl bother to stay around. It’s not like she didn’t have a chance to use it after her. All she has to do is tell her and walk away. There is a policy called BOOKING! She just have to change ID card with the girl who using a computer before her, that’s it! Now, walk away! Walk away and find something to do before you turn. Sadly stupid!
Enough of criticizing myself and others I think it is time to go before the same situation happened to the girl next to me occurs on me. Yer! It just not comfortable when someone is watching you while you are doing something. Yer! If it happen to me, I will rudely ask that people to leave. I’m not a polite kind of problem-solver. I’m bad! I am soo BAD.
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