I Am a Cancerian

I remember back on those frenzied days, just like other teenagers, we will try to find our identity and where we belong to. Often it was determined by what kind of music we listened to. Oasis, Foo Fighter, Green Day, Weezer, Smashing Pumpkins peeps only mix around themselves. Local alternatives followers who listened to Nice Stupid Playground, OAG, Dead Mushroom an all sorts will be in their circles. I was belong to the circle where pop song was hailed. What you saw on TV or what you listened on a radio is your musical religion per se. We made stupid clique and walk in groups. We do all the silly things but that was all history.

I was never happy being in a pop group. My soul are not fully cut and blunted to fit the shape of it. I am a Cancerian. I keep stuffs to myself under my protecting shell. Pop was too out there for me. Pop was Backstreet Boys, Westlife, Britney Spears etc. It was made for superficial gratification and not built to outlast a true music.

I was actually belong to those of the unknown. Those music that speak to your soul not to your ear or brain. I was that. I build my home around that. I create my own hobbies and loitering around the mall was not one of it. I hate to be a photocopy so I create, shape and mend myself to be what truly me. I’m into divination. I was so good in Numerology that I provide consults in my workplace back then when I was a shop assistant. People came to me with their full name and birthday on a piece of paper together with their crush’s. All for gratis. I once tried Necromancy on my custom made Ouija board and ended up haunted by unknown whispers to my left ear, like something was breathing to me and it followed me wherever I go. That was when I started seeing smoke of unknown apparition lurking around.

Tried taessography but to no avail

One thing that I never master up till now is Palmistry. Too much to remember.

I learned a lot about myself from all these stuff. I finally understand that I am Cancerian, I have a very strong attachment to home. I am a 4 at Life Path, a 6 in Expression / Destiny, 3 as Soul Urge, 3 as Inner Dreams etc. etc.

But what is important I am a Cancerian.